Hello world.
So… i havent been able to sleep properly since Sunday and i feel like i may be losing my mind. Sunday started with waking up to vomiting and fevers that lasted until about Tuesday. I couldn’t eat anything, all i could do was throw up, drink water, lay in bed for a bit, throw up again, drink more water so i had something in my stomach for the next go round. I finally put food down on Tuesday and stopped throwing up but now i have these horrible migraine like headaches that wont allow me to sleep properly. I can fall asleep for maybe 30 minutes to an hour but then i wake up uncomfortable from them over and over. Im having short dreams of 16mm bolex stock footage on the beach, music videos that don’t exist, and random encounters with people and places that i have never seen. Today im sitting at my computer exhausted and wobbly while i type this. Its not rad.
this is what i feel i may start to look like after a few more days of not sleeping.
Im trying to figure out what the cause of this is as my friend just told me that a few other of her friends are suffering from the same symptoms. It could be the whole “burning the candle at both ends” thing as my dad puts it, i have no idea. I have been trying to get alot of work done and maintain a social life for a bit but maybe its time to chill out on the social life stuff, seeing as how this all started a morning after being out drinking with friends. I didn’t feel like i over did it so much but Sunday morning tells me differently. I have also been dealing with stress from alot of different areas of life for a bit that have all turned in to large headaches the last few months such as the loss of unemployment, payments from clients not coming in on time causing rent to be hard one to come up with, certain people feeling entitled to more than they are actually entitled to therefore causing continued stress when trying to part ways from a bad business relationship, stress with the long term gf relationship that is constantly up and down, crappy decisions from crappy business people that dont know how to communicate their needs properly, etc etc bla bla.
Regardless, I have had migraine problems ever since a bad occurrence happened in Houston, but they tend to flare up when I over exert myself in general about once a week or so, and not to this extent of time. It makes me nervous so if anyone has any thoughts let me know em.
